Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Matthew 5:4
I had the privilege of hearing this powerful testimony below about natural burial. This man buried his wife and lovingly took care of her remains. This is at Narrow Ridge Earth Literacy Center in eastern Tennessee. They host a natural burial preserve on site.
[This was an emotional testimony. Minor edits have been made for readability, but we tried not to tamper with it to much.]
If I may just tell a short story of Alice… My name is Grant, and I’d like to tell a short story of how this came about.
My wife was a hospice nurse for 15 years. She knew the process and helped many families
walk through this journey. And she had
actually researched out and found this place here. We had been to South Carolina to research
natural burial, as well.
This is something that she
wanted—she had a favorite quilt of her grandmother’s that she wanted to be
wrapped in.
At the start of this
whole process, I knew some of it and I didn’t know some of it—cause as a
husband and wife we were married for 27 years, she does things and I do things
and I don’t know everything that she does. And so, when she passed away, I was
like, "Uh oh!” Here’s some information,
I knew basic stuff, but I didn’t know the whole story. That following week
after she passed I found the whole story.
So in general, we knew how she was going to be buried. We knew it was
going to be here. I knew the contacts to call to organize. Ok, Alice has passed
away, and what was going to happen, then I had six friends of mine that I had
employed to come with me. I would call Mitzy or Bill [from Narrow Ridge], and they would have
had the backhoe operator to dig the hole, and we would have brought her up that
day or the next day and placed her in the ground and buried her.
Well, God may have had a little alternate plan there, because it was January 6th and if you go back and look at the calendar, that day this major… I’m sure God’s up there saying, "You don’t have a clue what you’re doing, we’re going to have to slow this thing down!" What was that thing called? A polar vortex that came down… Cold! And it was like 2 degrees and there were 6 inches of snow on the ground, and so instead of bringing Alice directly up here, from home, I had to call the funeral home. I said, "I just need you to come by to pick her up and take her to your place, don’t do anything to her. Then we’ll figure it out as the week goes on."
So, I didn’t really know anything beyond just wrapping her up and bringing her here and burying her, and it was a Monday morning early, and so somewhere around Tuesday evening I started. I got on Google and I started Googling “green burials” and “home funerals” and different things like that and I found this YouTube series of videos about people that cared for their loved ones in a deeper way rather than the business model that we have today where the funeral home takes them, they prepare them, and they do everything and you don’t do anything except show up to the funeral home and stand beside the casket for a few minutes and then go to the graveyard. So, I … so this was Tuesday evening, so Wednesday, I went to the funeral home and I said, "I want to dress her, I want to prepare her for burial, and I said, ‘Can I do that?’ and they say, ‘Why, sure.’" And it was just real candid.
And so on Thursday, I had a few of my friends to go with me to the funeral home. I brought her grandmother’s blanket, her quilt. And so, I had the funeral people, they brought her into this room, and we left the room, and I said, "Just place her on that… and put a sheet over her, and let me have 20 minutes, 30 minutes, with her by myself, and then I’ll get my friends to come in."
Well, God may have had a little alternate plan there, because it was January 6th and if you go back and look at the calendar, that day this major… I’m sure God’s up there saying, "You don’t have a clue what you’re doing, we’re going to have to slow this thing down!" What was that thing called? A polar vortex that came down… Cold! And it was like 2 degrees and there were 6 inches of snow on the ground, and so instead of bringing Alice directly up here, from home, I had to call the funeral home. I said, "I just need you to come by to pick her up and take her to your place, don’t do anything to her. Then we’ll figure it out as the week goes on."
So, I didn’t really know anything beyond just wrapping her up and bringing her here and burying her, and it was a Monday morning early, and so somewhere around Tuesday evening I started. I got on Google and I started Googling “green burials” and “home funerals” and different things like that and I found this YouTube series of videos about people that cared for their loved ones in a deeper way rather than the business model that we have today where the funeral home takes them, they prepare them, and they do everything and you don’t do anything except show up to the funeral home and stand beside the casket for a few minutes and then go to the graveyard. So, I … so this was Tuesday evening, so Wednesday, I went to the funeral home and I said, "I want to dress her, I want to prepare her for burial, and I said, ‘Can I do that?’ and they say, ‘Why, sure.’" And it was just real candid.
And so on Thursday, I had a few of my friends to go with me to the funeral home. I brought her grandmother’s blanket, her quilt. And so, I had the funeral people, they brought her into this room, and we left the room, and I said, "Just place her on that… and put a sheet over her, and let me have 20 minutes, 30 minutes, with her by myself, and then I’ll get my friends to come in."
So you know, I just… one of the things that is so powerful
about what took place, there’s no doubt that doing this process was one of the
most meaningful things that I’ve ever done in my life, and I can’t imagine
doing anything that’ll be any more meaningful but to serve and to take care of
my wife during this time.
And so, I just… I brushed her hair, I wiped her, I
cleaned her off, I had some clothes picked out that some of the ladies at
church… I took several things and I said okay, "I want this skirt, what goes
with it?" so you know, and I got them involved and helped them make a
decision. And so I dressed her, in the
YouTube video I had learned how you dress a deceased body, and I dressed her
and I got her all in general clothes and I brought all my buddies in and they
helped me to tuck her in and make her real nice.
And so, the most meaningful thing that took place in this
whole process was she was dressed, she was fresh, she was clean, she was all (whole)
in excellent…, you know, I was ready to start closing up the blanket, and so I
thought I had made a mistake, because the way I had folded the quilt, when it
came to, it just came like this, and I thought, oh no, it’s not going to stay
like this…. And the funeral lady said, I got a big needle and some thick thread
and so we started down there and we came up just made little stitches so it was
just really cozy and really nice and just, it just looked right.
And so when we got to right here [pointing], when we sewed up right
here, all of a sudden I realized this is a moment in my life that will be like
no other because whenever… it was time for me to close her face. And out of everybody in the world that could
be the person to do that, who better to do that than her husband, the man who
loved her for 27 years? And it was just
a beautiful thing. It was hard to
do. It was a beautiful thing, it was the
most meaningful thing I have ever done. And I kissed her, and I brushed her
hair, and I closed her eyes, and we finished.
And then they had a shroud that we had and we finished tying it up and
so we stayed there and we talked for about 30 more minutes, and I told my
friends, "Okay, I’m at peace. We can do now." This was Thursday, and then we buried her Friday.
And so, I was totally at peace with serving my wife in this
way.
And so we left, went home, and then Friday we came up here,
the hole was dug, and we just had a few friends and family, said some proper
things, and one of the things that Alice and I did in life our mantra was, we
will be participants in this life, not spectators… this is not a spectator
sport, it’s full contact. And so I want to be involved in everything that was
part of it. So when it came time to let
her down into where the hole was dug, I jumped down in there, I said, "Ok
anybody freak out cause I’m jumping in" and all that was around her was the
blanket and the shroud, and I knew that, and there was a big pile of dirt right
here, and I had my friends, they all brought shovels, and I said, "Don’t wear
your good clothes, because we’re gonna work." And I want to serve her in one last way here. So I jumped down in that hole and then they
brought her over and set her down real gentle.
And I had brought a 5-gallon bucket with me, because I was thinking you
know when you start digging in the dirt, I don’t want this dirt to go down and
hit her body hard. And so they filled up
this 5-gallon bucket and I would pour it out and I would smooth it out and you
know, it probably took around 12, 15 buckets, and then I was like, "Ok, we’re
there, can do this," so they helped me out and we filled in the rest of the
hole.
I came up for the first couple of months twice a week. I
could not stay away,I had to come up. I
came up and there wasn’t grass growing then, but I would pick around in the
dirt, helped to smooth it out, cause it and I got it settled in good.. and when
it came time for mowing I asked, "Who mows this?" And they said, "Whoever’s
available." And so I said for the year
2014 I want to volunteer to do that.
And so I’ve mowed it… I let it go, I let it get too high…
well, it rained!
Just being part of here, I planted the wildflowers, I mow
around Jack in front of her, he’s the recipient of some of these wildflowers,
I’m like "Here Jack, here’s a few for you."
That’s the story of what took place.
The takeaway from this that I want to say is that having the
opportunity to do this here opened up new avenues for me to express my love to
her. And the emotional and spiritual
benefit of taking care of her in that way is the most meaningful… I cannot
imagine doing anything this meaningful ever again.
[This was the end of Grant's testimony, but some questions were asked.]
Do you have to work through a funeral director to at least
get transportation?
Mine was that way because I had several days involved, when
she passed away the weather was pretty ferocious. You can just move from death to burial. From your house or a hospital pickup, go
home.
The funeral home takes care of so many things, death certificate and all that, and you just have to do that yourself?
The funeral home takes care of so many things, death certificate and all that, and you just have to do that yourself?
I need her picked up and kept and then delivered to the
burial site, but we’ll figure out the days as the weather changes. Early Monday morning she passed away and
Friday we buried her. It cost me $1850
to pick her up and bring her here, and they did the death certificate, and had
that had not taken place with the weather . . .
Quite frankly, the weather was a good thing, because it
slowed me down to think and to do that part that I needed to do.
It is not required that a funeral home be involved. Once the coroner comes in and pronounces
someone dead, and gets that little bit of paperwork started… you get the death
certificate, you have to have that. But
you do not have to use a funeral home for anything.
It’s an ongoing educational endeavor of Narrow Ridge,
because hospitals are a little reluctant to hand over a body, even if you have
the death certificate. It’s their practice
and custom to hand it over to a funeral director, but that’s not required by
law to do that.
There are people who will say it’s the law to do this, but these
are assumed laws…and some of those people are saying it in good faith.
Narrow Ridge did offer a home burial workshop and have
connections with people who know how to do that and would be glad to share
information.
[End of Q & A]
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What are your thoughts on this testimony?[End of Q & A]
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How important is it how we treat others in death as well as in life?
This post is a continuation of the Ecumenical Season of Creation. We previously explored themes of decay and rebrith, and a natural burial is another way to interface with these themes.
A natural burial may seem strange to our modern society, but it was once a regular part of life. After reading this testimony, it makes me pause to think: Has our modern society divorced us too much from natural rhythms? Have we lost something important in the grief process by outsourcing the burial process to strangers? Have we become too fractured and disconnected? After all, Jesus tells us to turn toward our grief and mourning, and he never suggests we do anything to diminish it.
This piece focuses on the emotional and spiritual aspects of natural burial, but there are others: There are environmental benefits as well as financial benefits. It is also a witness of simplicity. There are differences between a natural burial and a green burial. See this link for explanation.
This piece focuses on the emotional and spiritual aspects of natural burial, but there are others: There are environmental benefits as well as financial benefits. It is also a witness of simplicity. There are differences between a natural burial and a green burial. See this link for explanation.







